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I'll do it differently here, I shall summarize myself in a day. I wake up at 7.07am, snooze for 3 more minutes til 7.10am. Check my phone for updates that happened when I was asleep. Jump out of bed cos I'm late. Rush through scrubbing myself and my teeth, as I'm doing that, I boil water for my daily beverage, Haha! Gobble down my breakfast and sometimes get scalded by the hot tea..(That should wake me up..) Head down, and tries to remember where the car is parked, dreads climbing to level 5-6 of the carpark. Drives, enters CTE from AMK Ave 1 exit, exits and enters TPE and almost immediately exits again at Jalan Kayu exit. Does Certification in the Quality and Business Improvement Department for the 700 million dollar, 154,000sqm investment in the Seletar Aerospace Park called Rolls-Royce Singapore Pte Ltd. (Lunch there sucks, as the food isn't that great..It's very expensive too!!) Leaves the office and heads home for dinner(loves mom's cooking!!), sometimes will head to school in the West cos I'm studying part time at Unisim, taking Degree in Aerospace Systems Engineering. On days when I don't have classes, I'll usually (try) and hit the books a little, run around the estate to exercise or laze around watching Deadliest Catch, Whale Wars or other exciting shows. I usually turn in before 12am to catch enough rest.. :) On weekends, haha! I usually cook, for the family, I'm the only child and as gratitude towards my Mom for cooking for almost the whole week, I cook for the family. My best creation by far is beer battered fish and chips. Oh ya..I have been bathing with Johnson's Baby Bath all my life, so if you squeeze me or wring me dry, soap bubbles might appear. I don't really know how to reply to a "Haha".

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Tuesday, December 31, 2002
- 10:57 PM

1st day..again.....itZ kinda fun...and very interesting..hahahha...the ppl there..very frenly..and..the aircon there..very cold..oh yah..I am working at AMK sportslink...hahhahaa..come visit mi anytime..


Monday, December 30, 2002
- 10:33 PM

No one can understand how I feel now....Man..ppl call it a 1 nite stand...but I call it a 1 day affair..it juz lasted 4 a day..juz 1 pathetic day..I tot l was there..but I wasn't..Juz soooo far away....out of reach..out of my grasp..juz way way way off... Played soccer...today..from 9.45..until 4.45..not bad sia..tired like fuck..kena injured somemore..how frustrating..and now I look like a lobster!! The afternoon sun..gave mi a damn nice tann...i took my shirt off and put it ova my head...then..the front tann..the back no tann...then the sleeve aso nv come out...everytime pull up...it falls down..then...the arm..3/4 tann...the legs even worst ah!!! The part from the shorts to the socks..in between there..all tann...then juz now took out my socks..diff colour...so funny...imagine if I wear underwear and play...ahhahaa..then like mi last time swimming like tt..the butt white white wan... Had a real bad day... and all I can say abt today...is in the lyrics of this song...

There's a thousand words that I could say
To make her come home
Oh, seems so long ago she walked away
Left me alone
I remember what she said to me
She was acting so strange
and maybe I was too blind to see
That she needed a change

Was it something I said
To make her turn away?
To make her walk out and leave me cold
If I could just find a way
To make it so that she was right here
But right now..

I've been sitting here
Can't get her off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains..

She's gone..
She's gone..
Baby she's gone
Girl you're gone, baby girl, you're gone..
You're gone..
You're...
But the truth remains...She's....


Sunday, December 29, 2002
- 4:26 PM

Couldn't sleep laz nite..There was juz something bothering mi..Juz tt little something..Juz can't explain that feeling..The feeling of..love? Feeling of hurt? Feeling of pain? Maybe I am just emotionally distressed..!! Hahaa.. 1 day just passed by like this..just 24hrs ago..I was looking into her eyes..looking at her smile..hearing her laughter...watching her walk..and we even took a cab together..of course with her another fren who is aso my fren..then they bully mi inside the car..She keep on sayin me..kpo..but I am not sia..maybe..she thinks I am..but..I will tell her that I am not..!! And then..I keep on 4getting her name..*bLuSh* Then my fren keep on correcting mi..HmMmm...Now listening to..the Rick Dee's top 100 countdown.. some songs like nv hear before sia... The whole house now..blasting with those songs.. Then, I heard Hero..wah..sad man...hahhaa...How come no robbie williams..hmmm...maybe later lah... I esp love this song..

I was her she was me
We were one we were free
And if there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
If there's somebody calling me
She's the one..

We were young we were wrong
We were fine all along
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one..


Saturday, December 28, 2002
- 11:01 PM

Hmmmm.....Went to watch a play today..with a few vball gers..hahahhaa..they jio mi go out..dunno why..Hmmmm....got 1 of them..kinda cute...nx yr sec 3...dunno wat class..but I think shld be da best class..she iz so so sooo...cute..hahaha..very cheerful..very pretty..very..nice...very sweet...ai yah...everything abt her is juz cool lah...Her eyes are the most beautiful part of her entire self...and I dunno wat got into me...but..ai yah...juz cannot describe the feeling... When will I see her again...I wonder.. Am..I think I am falling in love.....(again)..
When will I see u again...?
When will our hearts be together..?
Are we in love..?
Or juz frens...
Iz this the beginning...or is this the end...?
When will I see U again...Sweet sweet baby....
ItZ taken from some song..I can't remember the title..ItZ quite an oldie..U noe..I am into gold 90.5 now..dunno watZ got into me.. hahahaha....


- 12:49 AM

Aruba, Jamaica, ooh I wanna take ya
Bermuda, Bahama, come on pretty mama
Key Largo, Montego, baby why don't we go, Jamaica
Off the Florida Keys there's a place called Kokomo
That's where you wanna go to get away from it all
Bodies in the sand, tropical drink melting in your hand
We'll be falling in love to the rhythm of a steel drum band
Down in Kokomo

Yeah.....Kokomo..by the Beach Boys..!! Had a very very very bad day today man..I think it was becos of my gastric..I am farting all the time...feel so uncomfortable...*pUuuuTttt....* AhhHHhh....there goes another 1.... I think I will be looking at stars again tonite..they all seem so nice to look at..once u focus on 1...then..the rest juz keeps on poping out... Did some spring cleaning today...some only..yeah..some...juz throw away some pieces of paper...hahaha...and those post-it papers stuck on my wall...ahahhaa..all my formulas put there wan leh... mai siao siao ah..!! Really hope I can do well 4 my O levels..dun wanna go back to sch and repeat nx yr...it wld be such a disgrace......shit! there goes 1 more...............maybe tml..doin more spring cleaning...hahahaha...
ZZZzzzzzzzzz.................


Friday, December 27, 2002
- 12:53 AM

Hmmmm.... Last Christmas i gave U my heart.. But the very next day..U gave it away..
This yr..to save mi from tears..I'll give it to someone special.........
I always loved this Xmas song...as a matter of fact..itZ the 1 i have fond memories of..Itz a sad...but rather upliving song...dunno lah..but it juz brings alot of memories..maybe itZ a sad song..if not it wouldn't bring memories back.. I missed sch..dunno why..but i juz do..I long time nv use pen le..dunno whether i still can write or not....hahahha..juz quitted my job at the stupid place..I dun wish to say the name..and dun wish to have anything to do with it anymore.. I still wanna watch the lord of the rings...I aso wan the story bk man.. *eHam..Jan..??* hehehee.. remember hor...! Played pool again today...rating went up...and down...and up...and down..like stock market like tt... I wan a new PC...this wan..iz juz too slow...hmmm...toooooo slow..itZ not even a pentium pc..cos' I am using AMD chip...hahahaa..they say it iz more durable..and..actually ah...quite true leh...PC nv spoil 4 a very long time...my mama say..tt when the pc spoil then she will change a new wan..but then ah..haI..cannot make it liao...it doesn't seem to spoil...why!???
If I do get a new PC..I wan a pentium 4...with all the Creative components inside...like the sound blaster..the sound card...the video card...the CD-Rom drive...yah..everything!! But..I got no $$$$$.....haI...itZ juz like 1 PCK series...he said.."i won toto 3 times....but I cannot collect..........................!! " yupZ..tt part...hahahhaa...so funny...
Alrite..got to go sleep le...


Wednesday, December 25, 2002
- 11:55 PM

hahahahaha...5 mins left! Juz wanna say..merry christmas..!! nothing much...my hands and fingers are juz too tired... all my fingers are scalded...very diff to type..so..thatZ it 4 today.....


Tuesday, December 24, 2002
- 1:16 AM

Wahhhhhhhhh.........My 1st bloody day at work...learnt alot of things..and alot of vulgarities...hahahha..very cool to use them man..hahahhaZ.. Some mother fuckers there ah..ask 4 this..ask 4 tt...bloody shit man! Fuck it..!! My 1st day..already so cham..but well..I think thatZ wat the service sector is all abt..... And then ah..I muz memorize all the dishes..!! aHHHhhh....A|| man..all..!! My god... I missed scrubs today..got Xmas party at Nooch juz now sia...I enjoyed myself.. Ohh yah..I am a runner at Nooch..so which means..I will serve food to the ppl..hahaha...Next time muz go there hor..!! I am at the Jap section..so muz order Jap dishes.. All the ppl there are kinda cool...and frenly..ahahaha..funny aso..but dunno sia..I think got some custom there..like..to..kick ppl's butt wan..dunno why sia..but itZ kinda fun.. HaI.....tml..muz work somemore..hahahhaa..all the way until.11.45... muz report to work at..12 noon..man....LifE....!!! okok lahZ...sleep le..cannot tahan liao...being a runner..very jialak wan..and I mean..jialak...really eat up all my energy...hahahaha..tml..life will be diff liao...
nite..!!~~~


Sunday, December 22, 2002
- 11:40 PM

Wah..!! at last..!! got the stupid html thingy in liao...!! hahahahaZ...yay..!! And I have also found a very cool tune to go with it..and if u ever recollect wat it is..Msg mi and tell mi..hahahaa... Went to Chinatown Point today..man was it crowded or wat? So many ppl juz lookin at 16 girls..hahahhaa...cool stuff..!! Saw winnie..she is so so sooo pretty..nv knew the other side of my jie... Only noe the sporty side of her..ahahaha..but she din win anything..haI..but she aso told mi before..that she wanted to get it over with..so thatZ it..hahaha.. then today..got ppl..bring foghorn there ah..cry papa cry mama ah..!! Hearing the sound..seems like during the camp like that..got change of activity..will sound foghorn wan..ahhahahaa... Then, val was there filming using xin yan's cam corder..the funny thing was that when she moved the video cam..our heads moved at the same time..it was like left...syncronized...right..aso syncronized...all syncronized movements..hahahahaZ...then..we went to Mac..I tried the mushroom soup..so small..not worth it man..!! I used a straw to drink it...hahahhaa..then..make alot of noise..ahhaaa... Got caught in the rain aso..then now sick..haI...
Back hm..I saw winnie on TV..hahahahaa...then weiquan called..and told mi to report to work tml..but HOW..!!?? I am sick u noe..... AnywayZ..singapore drew 1-1..hahaha..not bad...but the pitch was waterlogged...
Kie...pool...hahahhahaa..!!


- 11:04 PM

testing..testing...1..2..hahahhaa...
and testing testing..somemore...


Saturday, December 21, 2002
- 6:38 PM

MAYBE
Friends? are they here to stay? Or are they juz there..because of some other reasons? Think abt it..ppl..Are the the ones who giv u presents juz becos u asked 4 them..or are they the wans..who giv u..from their heart...? I wonder.. Or are they the 1s who goes out with u..juz becos they dun wanna go hm tt early..? or are they the 1s who go out with u..fearing tt u dun have any company? Think abt it.. Do they call u often? or do they sms u..and ask u to call them?

U took my heart away,
When my whole world was grey.
U gave me everything, a little bit more.

And when itZ cold at night,
And U sleep by my side,
U become the meaning of my life.

Living in a world so cold,
U were there to warm my soul,
U came to mend my broken heart,
And gave my life a brand new stand

And now..I'm in Love.........


Thursday, December 19, 2002
- 1:04 AM

How did I ever let yo slip away
Never knowing I'd be singing this song someday
And now I'm sinking to rise no more
Ever since you closed the door

If I could Turn, turn back the hands of time
Then my darlin' you would be mine
If I coule Turn, turn back the hands of time
Then my darlin' you would be mine

Funny, funny how time goes by
And blessings are missed in the wink of an eye
Why oh Why oh Why should one have to go on suffering
When everyday I plead come back to me
And you had enough love for the both of us
But I, I di you wrong I admit I did
But now I'm facing the rest of my life a lone


I'd never hurt you (If I could turn back)
Never do you wrong (If I could turn back)
And never leave your side (If I could turn back)
If I could turn back the hands
There'll be nothing I wouldn't do for you (If I could turn back)
Forever honest and true to you (If I could turn back)
If you accept me back in ypur heart, I Love You
If I could trun back the hands
(If I could turn back) That would be my will
(If I could turn back) Darlin' I'm begging yto take me by the hands
If I could turn back the hands
I'm going down yes I am (If I could turn back)
Down on my bended knee yeah (If I could turn back)
And I'm gonna be right there until you return to me
If I could turn back the hands
(If I could turn back) If I could turn back the clock on the wall
(If I could turn back) Then I'd come to realize how much I Love you,
Love You, Love You, Love You, Love You
If I could turn back the hands ---( yeah..sing this part..20 times... )


Wednesday, December 18, 2002
- 11:47 PM

I did something very useful today..I painted the gates! ahahhaa.. and aso painted my hair..now..like kena highlighted like tt..hope it goes off soon.. My hand cramp le..actually..my fingers cramp..dunno why..maybe hold paintbrush too long.. I think thatZ the case lah..if not..wat else?
Singapore lose 4-0...to arch rivals..Malaysia..hahahaa...orbi..Juz dun like the sports minister lah..his lousy vision of SG's sports..he cannot make it ah..cannot make it!! Shld put mi as sports minister sia..I will mould SG's sporting future..
Juz look at SG's passing...and their shooting..itZ no where near the goal..the foreign imports were supposed to produce something..but..look wat happen..sloppy defending..poor finishing..lousy passing.. SG really needs some training up if they wanna prove themselves.. Juz the passing already makes mi sian..dunno wat they doin aso..at the sidelines..aso need to kick the bloody ball so hard meh? stupid.. and that..the coach go put some useless keeper in front of the 2 posts..when he himself looks like 1 of the post already... But then ah..come to think abt it..they are using the world cup ball...so..I think..they not used to it lah..the ball is super light and super smooth.. i think tt caused some problems..cannot blame them aso.. Hey..but Malaysia is using the World cup balla..in case u din noe..it is the Adidas Fevernova... And the SG league is using a Mikasa balla..how can..malaysian league is even using da WC balla..and their league is poorer than ours..why is singapore so like tt wan... can spend 600 million on the 2 durians..and cannot spend juz..50 bucks on a balla..and if u buy in bulk ah..can get discount wan..and how did I noe tt..my cuz is working in a sports shop... wa lau eh...if SG carries on like tt ah..Thailand will trash them...6-0 ah... but then...muz giv vhance..maybe 6-1.. Hehehehehee...!! still the same hor? ahahhahaa...


Sunday, December 15, 2002
- 11:17 PM

Tonite got soccer..Liverpool vs Sunderland.. It is at the stadium of light.. the last time this 2 sides met..they drew! Liverpool having 24 shots on goal..to Sunderland's 0 shots on goal..Damn! Sure really do hope that they will win tonite! I bet 50 bucks on them aso man.. I really really wanna play soccer..My legs are so itchy..feel like wacking balls.. maybe wacking balls against other's balls.. hahahahaZ..! Eh..! dun think dirty lah... Speaking abt dirty.. Christina's new song...actually..quite old liao..dirrty..hahahha..tt wan nice man.. wOoOoo..hOoOOoo..!!
If I get in a jc..i wld join tennis.. if poly..I wld choose lah..maybe tennis aso..or maybe..flying.. too bad no baseball..I wanna have a feel of tt game.. I think that tennis wld be real fun..Think of mi..as hewitt..hahaha..agassi..sampras..yeah! I aso like to fly..the youth flight club sent mi a letter...ask mi wanna join or not..but my prelims like shit! so cannot join..maybe after I get my results..I might intend to join.. They require Eng..Sci..Maths..hmmm...I think I shld be able to do well in those..U aso need perfect eyesight! And..I "sadly" have! hahahaha...
Lord of da Rings coming out le..yAy..!! yippee!! wOOoo hOooo...!! I remember watching the fellowship of the ring with winnie..I think..it was..her birthday or something..or was it mine? hmmmm....the show was cool man...she likes legolas so much man! hahahahhaZ...actually..legolas is orlando bloom..the hollywood actor..I kinda like him too..in real life..he have a mohawk! man..so nice..I feel like cutting 1 too... but then again....my spiky hair..wld be nice....
Ok..! I am done with today..


Saturday, December 14, 2002
- 10:54 PM

hmmmm....alrite..continuing..
Dear Mister-I'm-Too-Good-To-Call-Or-Write-My-Fans,
this'll be the last package I ever send your ass
It's been six months and still no word - I don't deserve it?
I know you got my last two letters;
I wrote the addresses on 'em perfect
So this is my cassette I'm sending you, I hope you hear it
I'm in the car right now, I'm doing 90 on the freeway
Hey Slim, I drank a fifth of vodka, you dare me to drive?
You know the song by Phil Collins, "In the Air of the Night"
about that guy who coulda saved that other guy from drowning
but didn't, then Phil saw it all, then at a a show he found him?
That's kinda how this is, you coulda rescued me from drowning
Now it's too late - I'm on a 1000 downers now, I'm drowsy
and all I wanted was a lousy letter or a call
I hope you know I ripped +ALL+ of your pictures off the wall
I love you Slim, we coulda been together, think about it
You ruined it now, I hope you can't sleep and you dream about it
And when you dream I hope you can't sleep and you SCREAM about it
I hope your conscience EATS AT YOU and you can't BREATHE without me
See Slim; Shut up bitch! I'm tryin to talk!
Hey Slim, that's my girlfriend screamin in the trunk
but I didn't slit her throat, I just tied her up, see I ain't like you
cause if she suffocates she'll suffer more, and then she'll die too
Well, gotta go, I'm almost at the bridge now
Oh shit, I forgot, how'm I supposed to send this shit out?

Dear Stan, I meant to write you sooner but I just been busy
You said your girlfriend's pregnant now, how far along is she?
Look, I'm really flattered you would call your daughter that
and here's an autograph for your brother,
I wrote it on the Starter cap
I'm sorry I didn't see you at the show, I musta missed you
Don't think I did that shit intentionally just to diss you
But what's this shit you said about you like to cut your wrists too?
I say that shit just clownin dogg,
c'mon - how fucked up is you?
You got some issues Stan, I think you need some counseling
to help your ass from bouncing off the walls when you get down some
And what's this shit about us meant to be together?
That type of shit'll make me not want us to meet each other
I really think you and your girlfriend need each other
or maybe you just need to treat her better
I hope you get to read this letter, I just hope it reaches you in time
before you hurt yourself, I think that you'll be doin just fine
if you relax a little, I'm glad I inspire you but Stan
why are you so mad? Try to understand, that I do want you as a fan
I just don't want you to do some crazy shit
I seen this one shit on the news a couple weeks ago that made me sick
Some dude was drunk and drove his car over a bridge
and had his girlfriend in the trunk, and she was pregnant with his kid
and in the car they found a tape, but they didn't say who it was to
Come to think about, his name was.. it was you
Damn!

This goes out to the jammers! assholes! no sense wans! idiots! son of bitches! ESPECIALLY U..!! yeah..u noe who I am tokin abt...U..!!


Friday, December 13, 2002
- 10:29 PM

I have a dedication to make...
Dear Slim, I wrote but you still ain't callin
I left my cell, my pager, and my home phone at the bottom
I sent two letters back in autumn, you must not-a got 'em
There probably was a problem at the post office or somethin
Sometimes I scribble addresses too sloppy when I jot 'em
but anyways; fuck it, what's been up? Man how's your daughter?
My girlfriend's pregnant too, I'm bout to be a father
If I have a daughter, guess what I'ma call her?
I'ma name her Bonnie
I read about your Uncle Ronnie too I'm sorry
I had a friend kill himself over some bitch who didn't want him
I know you probably hear this everyday, but I'm your biggest fan
I even got the underground shit that you did with Skam
I got a room full of your posters and your pictures man
I like the shit you did with Rawkus too, that shit was fat
Anyways, I hope you get this man, hit me back,
just to chat, truly yours, your biggest fan
This is Stan

Dear Slim, you still ain't called or wrote, I hope you have a chance
I ain't mad - I just think it's FUCKED UP you don't answer fans
If you didn't wanna talk to me outside your concert
you didn't have to, but you coulda signed an autograph for Matthew
That's my little brother man, he's only six years old
We waited in the blistering cold for you,
four hours and you just said, "No."
That's pretty shitty man - you're like his fuckin idol
He wants to be just like you man, he likes you more than I do
I ain't that mad though, I just don't like bein lied to
Remember when we met in Denver - you said if I'd write you
you would write back - see I'm just like you in a way
I never knew my father neither;
he used to always cheat on my mom and beat her
I can relate to what you're saying in your songs
so when I have a shitty day, I drift away and put 'em on
cause I don't really got shit else so that shit helps when I'm depressed
I even got a tattoo of your name across the chest
Sometimes I even cut myself to see how much it bleeds
It's like adrenaline, the pain is such a sudden rush for me
See everything you say is real, and I respect you cause you tell it
My girlfriend's jealous cause I talk about you 24/7
But she don't know you like I know you Slim, no one does
She don't know what it was like for people like us growin up
You gotta call me man, I'll be the biggest fan you'll ever lose
Sincerely yours, Stan -- P.S.
We should be together too

..........To be continued......
( This is a Love song..Mind u!! )


Thursday, December 12, 2002
- 10:58 PM

Hmmm...to u ppl reading this...the white background very plain hor...hahahaha... spent the whole day at home...man...rotting..
can see moss..algae..fungi..forming on mi already... While I was at home..I tot...then..i tot again...and I tot again.... And yet again..why am I like tt..? why is my life like tt..? why why why? Am I really tt lousy? Am I really tt no gd..? Am I really tt..no gd lookin? HaI...... Tonite got Liverpool match...hope they win...they are damn bad at the moment..kinda fed-up with them.. really really do hope tt..they will win tonite.. anywayZ..i will be watching it too..so..maybe I will be singing..U'll Never Walk Alone too..hahahhaa!!
Liverpool...clap clap clap! Liverpool...Clap! clap! clap!
I miss the gd old sch days...when my classmates call mi gary gerrard...my nick in class..we used to have lots of nick names...
Weiquan is Veron..
Benedict is Bellamy
Hock Meng is Carlos
Hong Peng is Maccarone
Yong Liang is..( nv hear him tok abt his..so..dun bother..)
Xiong Jie..( this guy...got alot ) is van Nistelrooy, Alan Smith, Beckham..bla bla blaa..
and of cos..finally..Me is Gerrard
All those names above..form the famous PHS Bomb Squad..! Squadron no. 111 Leader is Wei quan...I am the Admiral..!! HahahahaZ...!! cool huh.. there is aso a f4 in my class...these 4 stupid idiots..always together... there is also a porno king..dunno why he is called tt..but..juz call him tt..I think he trades them or something.....There is a loner...who is always alone... oh yah! a sleepy head..by the name of yaozhong..1 day got 9 periods..only recess period awake..hahahhaa...
AlriteZ...back to pool...yet again.....my rating..gettin higher...ahahaaahh!!


Wednesday, December 11, 2002
- 11:11 PM

I dun believe it...I am now hooked to gold 90.5..and..no more p10.. Gary!! wassup with u man.... but the songs they play ah...are nice man...like the old version of abracadabra..where sugar ray did the cover..and the old version of only you..where enrique did the cover.. hahahaa...and lots more covers...
The 1 i like best is "only you"... it actually reminds mi...of some sweet moments..but..juz couldn't cherish them...
Also..got another song...which has a storyline in it..itZ abt a guy...who loves this girl so much..tt he can't bear to lose her..also this guy..is juz shy to ask her too... Which..coincidentally..coincides with watZ happening to me now... life.. HaI.........

Juz helped my dad do some spreadsheets..he seems bad with them..had no choice, cos my mum forced mi..haI again...
I feel like writing poems...but..dunno why..the words dun seem to come out rite..I remembered writing poems when I felt lonely..felt like..felt...juz felt lah... But, look at mi now...not even a word out.. Man........this sucks! Feel like running tmR...wanna run...run...like forrest gump...juz keep running non stop... But why I run 4? He ran 4 his love...maybe I shld do tt too... HmmMmmm..........

RiteZ..back to pool..!!


Monday, December 09, 2002
- 4:47 PM

Actually ah...keeping a diary ah...is not my cup of coffee..but I juz wanna write...if not my english standard will slacken.. hahahaa... let mi tok abt my dreams..and aspirations.. If..I get gd results 4 my Os..I wld apply 4 jc..or..i wld take up Aeronautical studies in Singapore Poly.. If..I dun get gd results...then probably some computer course...aso in poly... I really wanna fly..travel to all sorts of countrys has always been my dream.. I am getting lazier day by day..If I dun get a job soon..I will rot at home...maybe fungus will grow on mi..moss and algae too.....

Got this song very nice, it goes something like this...:
I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me

I’m more than a bird…I’m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It’s not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see

It may sound absurd…but don’t be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed…but won’t you concede
Even Heroes have the right to dream
It’s not easy to be me

Up, up and away…away from me
It’s all right…You can all sleep sound tonight
I’m not crazy…or anything…

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me

It’s not easy to be me.

Five For Fighting : Superman ( Its Not Easy )


Thursday, December 05, 2002
- 10:19 PM

hmmmmm................bAcK fRoM cAmP..!!! yAy..!! had only 7 hrs of sleep only..but..feel so energetic!!! there were chicks there..and aso..some cool guys..I feel that they will make real good instructors.. as usual..I did the logistics stuff again..like serving water...guard the canteen...but..occasionally..I helped out at the high elements..and even belayed Mrs Soh down.. Mr Ng..was a CCO...now then I noe sia.. Then..the Ms Tang..was such a flop! She did not take part in the campfire..! F*** oFf..!! I love the cheh cheh golek!! ( izzit spelt this way?? ) hahahhaaaZ.. Oh..yah! Bring more CDs..I wanna listen to songs..!! I did the challenge pole..! ( not pole dance ah! ) Was like up there 4...5 mins! ONLY..!! The others..would take..15 mins to jump..And aso..I caught it..!! Then started swinging up there...did 1 pull up..I was too tired lahZ..then the CCO..din let mi down..did the ultimate torture on me..! juz left mi..inches above the ground! My..bird bird..pain sia...hahaaha...actually..every1 else's would lah...
When we break camp..KFC as usual..hahahhahaZ...stink the whole place up man..!! wOOoo...hOOoo..!! Played some Dare games in KFC..hahaha..i kena..man...got to pose like the kids in the picture...haI.... I got the 1 with the whipped potato wan.. after tt..we played bowling...2 games..I got..4 strikes..3 spares..many many..long gang...hahahhaa..!! Played pool with Terence (2C`2002)... I feel tt we both..have something in common...hahahhaa...but dunno wat.. Played with WQ again...and Joanna..and I tyco win.. cos the black ball went in...hahahhahaZ..
Then it was home sweet home..!! ZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzz...........4 13 hrs..!!!


Monday, December 02, 2002
- 12:29 AM

ItZ..12+ liao...And I am still awake..playin pool with WQ..he is good man...but..i his "shifu" so..hahahhaa...can wack! My hair very long leh...dunno whether leslie will scold mi..but anywayZ..itZ at the urban area..so..got barbers nearby...ahhahaa..!! but..dun care lahZ... Tml wld be a fun filled day..it shld be full of happenings..and i can scold ppl liao..hahaha! yay! but..i dun like doin so..make mi older only...u age faster aso....more wrinkles...ur hairline will rise...hahaha..so on... Dun think I can sleep later..I have this habit of..can't sleep before camps..dunno why.. Maybe..thinking of the persons/person...I think abt all the time..*hint* *hint* *clue* *clue*..

kiE..back to pool...
whoever reads this..miss mi
Chewy..miss mi 2..
Jan..miss mi lots..
I will miss u..hahahaa...


Sunday, December 01, 2002
- 11:32 AM

waH..today read the newspaper...they say 'wah lau' is a bad word..hahahaahhaZ tell tt person go f*** off sia... if wah lau is a bad word..then wah piang..wah say! all bad lah..ha! woke hm...minutes ago..then my left hand cramp! tml goin camp le...hahahahaa! yay! but not at jalan behtera..~sad~ sort of have a connection with tt place liao... The new campsite is juz beside Bendemeer Sec only..hahahaa...izzit a mixed sch?? ~evil laFF~ eh..but now holiday leh...haI..sadden!
Oh..yah..I more thing...wat shld I bring tml..!!!???? Nobody gimme pack list!! aGhH...!!!

Ppl..muZ miSS mi leh..hahahahaZ.. ZZZzzz..............


- 1:32 AM

My birthday!! I am 16...!! Nc-16??? hmmmmm..................


- 1:31 AM

Opps....


- 1:30 AM

wassup!!! hahahaha...wah...the bbq ah...so nice..i think i saw a ghost...got some1 staring at mi juz now..in the middle of the field somemore.. hmmmm....the food was...nice...esp the marshmellows..but then ah..the chicken nv marinate!!! So plain..dunno wat I eating somemore... Aso got some...professional chow ah bengs there ah..dunno whose fren...like to call them professional..cos the way the flick up their lighter ah...I can nv learn...hahahhaZ..! Went there with a yellow shirt...scared ppl cannot see mi ah... in front got the peace sign..hahahhaa...ppl in the planes above mi can see mi..I think........ Wah!! 1.30 Am liao...muz sleep le...hahahhaZ..!! Eh....how come...9.33 here?? hmmmm....chewy! help!!