I'll do it differently here, I shall summarize myself in a day. I wake up at 7.07am, snooze for 3 more minutes til 7.10am. Check my phone for updates that happened when I was asleep. Jump out of bed cos I'm late. Rush through scrubbing myself and my teeth, as I'm doing that, I boil water for my daily beverage, Haha! Gobble down my breakfast and sometimes get scalded by the hot tea..(That should wake me up..) Head down, and tries to remember where the car is parked, dreads climbing to level 5-6 of the carpark. Drives, enters CTE from AMK Ave 1 exit, exits and enters TPE and almost immediately exits again at Jalan Kayu exit. Does Certification in the Quality and Business Improvement Department for the 700 million dollar, 154,000sqm investment in the Seletar Aerospace Park called Rolls-Royce Singapore Pte Ltd. (Lunch there sucks, as the food isn't that great..It's very expensive too!!) Leaves the office and heads home for dinner(loves mom's cooking!!), sometimes will head to school in the West cos I'm studying part time at Unisim, taking Degree in Aerospace Systems Engineering. On days when I don't have classes, I'll usually (try) and hit the books a little, run around the estate to exercise or laze around watching Deadliest Catch, Whale Wars or other exciting shows. I usually turn in before 12am to catch enough rest.. :) On weekends, haha! I usually cook, for the family, I'm the only child and as gratitude towards my Mom for cooking for almost the whole week, I cook for the family. My best creation by far is beer battered fish and chips. Oh ya..I have been bathing with Johnson's Baby Bath all my life, so if you squeeze me or wring me dry, soap bubbles might appear. I don't really know how to reply to a "Haha".

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a gd day of soccer..wrecked..by some NSF dude playin soccer at the same court..
gary.............being the defensive midfielder..(mould of xabi alonso..) haa.. went into a challenge with my right leg.. the opponent took a shot...but he faked me... he pushed the ball forward.. and wacked the ball hard..and low.. at the same time..i sticked out my leg..tryin to block the shot..(which i did..) so..it was..his leg..against the ball..and the ball against my leg..meaning tt the ball was sandwiched.. i felt.."ccrr..." and..i knew wat happened alr.. i thot i could run it off.. as all players would.. so..i..played on..juz clutchin my ankle as the game went on... then came another challenge...this time i won the ball..and went on a counter attacking run.. look up... no one in front of me.. took a shot..... "cracckkKk.." i knew..it was gone... pain like hell.....(i missed the goal..the ball went bobbling to the keeper...)
fuck it!!!
my game...ruined..... lack of match practice...results in injury..... bad one too.. took 1/2 an hr to walk home...hah..


and..wats worst...i gt 3 blisters....2 burst le..and 1..i burst it purposely..din like a lump there.. yepp...and when i came back and bathed... woOooo!!!!! water went past....... pain like fuck too!! i was jumping in the toilet..... heehh! like doin some tribal dance...




hurts so bad...............and i got driving later...darnn!! lucky my rite leg is..juz for accel..and brake...no need step tt hard.. haa...but still....need to take care...soO...cyaa!!!








self declare off day!!!! friday!!! the mayday weekend!! which means..i have 4 days rest.......wOOooooooooo.... but...i have to go polyclinic and keng some illness out.. hmm..was discussing with my fren today.. so..i thot of goin in with my head tilted to 1 side..and coming out with my head ok...then..he was sayin..u tonite go a&e la..haha... i said can aso.. but i nv wanna go back in there again...


i think workin there will make mi lose aloooooooooooot of my sanity... and..IQ... go there 1 day..iq drop by 1..
an eg of my sanity lost...
i came back today..turned on the tv...took off my clothes...turn on the lights(it was 6pm..duHh..) took of my clothes..and hung them back inside my cupboard..... wats worst...turned on the radio at the same time... and...then..i went to bathe... when i stepped into the toilet..i realised tt i din bring anything with me........ urghhh..........hw dumb can 1 get..!?!?!?!


another eg...my fren and i have been takin 25 to work everyday.. this time..he took 22 and even happily told mi the bus number he's on.. then he called..shit! im on the wrong bus..... haaaa.......


and..another eg...
since we do repeated tasks all the time rite... my fren actually...had a wire in his hand..and another thing in his other hand.. and he juz sat there..and stared into space..for over 15mins........haha..


ohhh..and the hawkers over at ubi..either has short term memory..or none at all!!!! always give us wrong order.... today i asked for pork ribs noodle....and the choice of noodle..was the thick bee hoon....wat came instead???? all 3 types of noodles!!! the yellow..the thick bee hoon..and the bee hoon!! wassup man!!!!!!! wats worst!! other stalls aso happening the same thing!!!!!!!


i tell u....i cant wait to get out of this....miserable place.......................................


juz lemme go home...............................................








another sunny day..has come and gone away...








Today I saw somebody
Who looked just like you
She walked like you do
I thought it was you
As she turned the corner
I called out your name
I felt so ashamed
When it wasn't you
Wasn't you
How can I forget
When each face that I see
Brings back memories
Of looking at you
I just can't go on
Living life as I do
Comparing each girl with you
Knowing they just won't do
They're not you






AhHh....remininscence...


so i guess there goes my weekend.....












day 5..TGIFF..!!!!
(thank god its fuckin friday..)


k..juz a word of caution before i start complaining abt today...if u have chest pains and shortness of breath..frequently..do go see the doc soon k? cos i have a fren..who is juz a casual fren to me..he juz had an operation.. well..it went like this..


ur lungs..or..to be specific..ur bronchioles..which is an extension of ur bronchus..its the part tt diffuses the oxygen into ur blood stream..and aso diffuses carbon dioxide from ur blood stream.. well..tt part of his...apperantly..trapped air instead of diffusing them.. so now he had to cut open his lungs...burst the bubble...check for more bubbles..if there are..burst them..if there aint..scrub the wall of the lungs so tt it will stick back..then patch back the wound..and stitch it back up..


symptoms..yaa..chest pains..and shortness of breaths..


wat worries mi is tt...as my attachment fren was tellin us today.. i....thot back.. ehhh..fuck..sometimes i aso get chest pains..and shortness of breaths.. i thot it was juz a heart burn or wat..(i dunno wat a heart burn is..) budden after awhile the pain subsides.. and its back to normal again...dunno man.. im..gettin..a lil... scared...


1st..i have stomach pains..and i cant differenciate between stomach pain wanna shit type..and stomach pain muz go hospital type..yaa..its tt bad la..so everytime i got stomach pain..i'll juz go sit down and try to squeeze something out..haa..
and now..i might..............be gettin somethign else...


argh..rather die.....


k..now..back to today..straighten out the wires..all the heads muz be level..did tt for 25 pieces of...crap...
then..sorted wires..cos the labels were all mixed up...
then..our breaks are gettin longer..and our work time is gettin shorter...
thinkin of ways to slack..and escape from work..
and........best of all..im all smokey......


now i understand y ppl do drugs..smoke weed..smoke crack..smoke wateva....go geylang...(hey! my fren's there now..) haa..err..pcc...or rather..masturbate...hmmm.......wat other stress relieving "exercises" are there huh??? soon la...juz very very very soon..i will be doin 1 of those... workin over there..is like..workin in a...underground piece of...shit...


it will soon be over.............................................






day 3....and..4..haa...




wednesday...same..i was all coiled up..as i had to coilet wires..budden something happened in the afternoon..a container load of fans arrived..and we had to transfer them from 1 container to another.. transfer them manually..! yeapp... it sure was tiring..but......................we were damn happy la! cos we got to get outta tt place..!! dammit...... we were all damn shag after that 1000 boxes of fans.. yeapp!! 1000!!!!!!!!! ONE THOUSAND..then when takin the fans out from the container..it seems like forever to reach the end..that took us the whole afternoon..ha..


today..hmmmmmm...........same! 1 word..same! hah.. wiring...sorting...labeling...


if i suddenly die or wat ah...u will noe the cause... cos im all tangled up!




reverted back to this buble's home...so damn appropriate............. juz lemme go home...........everyday...im wishin.....for the time to pass faster..and for the bell to ring..




oHh....i finally passed my adv theory!! woOo..!! hahah... y i use finally..cos i took it twice already! hahahah...ok..nx step...TP test....cannot let my dad down..muz 1 time pass........ yeap!


i havent been msging much lately too...sooooo............i think my fonebill..wun explode this mth..ha!
in fact..i might juz pay the subscription..hmmm......thatz cool!!
u noe y??? cos the only time i CAN use my fone..is when im in the toilet..sneaking into the toilet to use la..and lunch time..break time.. budden i aso get few msgs from afew ppl...so...i dun have many msgs to reply..


so..sms mi more la!!




if u care....gimme a call aft 8..






day 2






1 word....monotone.........
repeat the same thing..again...and again...and again.......and again...........and again....................ohh..i could go on....again..and again.......
fuck la.................even our liaison officer who came down..couldnt do much... wanted a 1hr break..but....he couldnt get it for us... there's nth we can do now... so....im thinkin of a plan to boycott that place...


i need helpers to plan......and the plan is...to boycott the place..duh.. can help mi plan? anyone??


will discuss with the rest of them tmr, we are really really...damn..pissed......ha..


our hands get numb...our legs get numb....fingers hurt...even the strong guys there aso cannot take it..let alone me..the..pine sized..


aiiiiiiii...yaaa.....


tmr is wednesday........
aiii...............time passes by so slowly now............................


knn!! fuck it! ccb...!!!!!!! !^$@%$#@)*^$... arghHHhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!! big big big fuck man!!! yess... u will see alot of fucks in this entry...


it all started....leavin at 7..wakin up at 6.30..meetin my fren who was..15mins later..cos he was at the wrong bus stop..ha..so delayed abit..but we were still quite early..
k..here starts the fuck part..went into the place..and..the aircon was either spoilt..or not enuff gas was inside..the place was damn hot la.. and quite run down aso... looks like some..ancient office..with ancient furniture..and ancient lookin layout..with..ancient looking ppl.. ya la..for short! the place looks so lok cok!!! there and then..i was dreamin of may anne..at daimler........valene at crystal jade....jo..and somewhere she likes.......tt floorbal shop.. and me! suffering at tt place..


well the theory of tt place is..if u have nth to do..they will find something else for u to do..ha! well..i started by sorting out 18bundles of 50cables.... and then takin 1 from each bundle..and bundling them into 1 single bunch.. had to do it 50times..walkin to and fro 18times for 1 bundle....u multiply tt by 50 la!! do the math urself... i think i covered...42km!! a full marathon by juz walkin to and fro..and aso frequent visits to the toilet..to eat a lil snake...but it wasnt of much use...it took mi..almost 5hrs to complete the 50bundles... baskettt...walk..walk..walk...think wat..newpaper big walk issit?/ fuck...........it... so i got abit disorientated..and..i thot i could rest a lil..


but no!! an auntie grabbed me...and asked mi to carry afew crates..and crimp the wires..........in case u dunno wat crimping is..its juz squeezin heads..to wires.......yaa.. so..wat we did today was..screw...strip...and...squeeze...ha! sounds crude....but..had to use layman terms.. hahaha..... or..and some good drilling too!! hahahha!!!!!


tt place din even have a radio!!! urghhh...so my only form of entertainment...........was whistling..............tt..aroused afew inquisitive heads...ha..so i stopped...pissed..!! cant even whistle... fuckkk...double fuck...


tt place looks like a wired jail...haha..wired<--ha..geddit? oerr.....nvm.. cables and wires...yaa..geddit? haha.. overworked la....underpaid or not...i dun care..money is not an issue...but..really overworked......clearly exploiting us...we are there for attachment...not for free labour!!!!!!!! fuck fuck fuck...triple fuck!! but...for some consolation...all 10 ppl there noe each other..in 1 way or another..hahah!!
so u can see us pointing middle fingers to each other....and so on.....making faces..smiling.....the workforce there..is 25+++...
workin there..makes mi feel old....but nvm..thats wat i always wanted to feel anyway...
i shall train to be an auntie killer....wahhahahaahhaa...


and the lunch break is from...11.30 to 12.10!!!!!!!! fuck it la..my secondary sch recess is even longer than tt lor!!! (it was only becos we refused to go back to class...) hahah...then loiter round sch..but still...its damn short...squeeze the food into ur mouth..and go!! fuck la.......................and another break at 3+..tea break as they say..but it only lasts for 10mins!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! freaking 10mins!!!!!!! wat can u do man!!!! wait for the water to boil...and pour the hot water into ur tea cup..blow afew times..and the bell rings..duhHhhh......n u have to go back to work.. ahHh...great!


k la...fuck it for today la...went hm..so tired....couldnt even do anything...eat..and type..now my hand hurts....so...............thats abt all for today...


i need a bathtub..wanna soak inside..anyone willing to spare mi ur tub??? for a once a week...please????
and aso..someone who is willing to gimme a backrub???? pls pls????? kindly call mi....ya? thanksss...i really mean it...please..??? anyone???




shall suffer in silence..from now...


and my only salvation is...watchin simpsons...............d'oh!




ohh...afew days back..asked i smsed into power98..and asked my cousin to play me a song abt...a love tt was nv meant to be..she said..okie..i've got 1 coming up..
and then....this came...


You were my sun
You were my earth
But you didn't know all the ways I loved you, no
So you took a chance
And made other plans
But I bet you didn't think that they would come crashing down, no


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I know that they say
That somethings are better left unsaid
It wasn't like you only talked to him and you know it
All of these things people told me
Keep messing with my head
You should've picked honesty
Then you may not have blown it




basket.......all along i was only bumming to the beats..din really take notice of the lyrics.. but its damn nice la.. damn true aso..hah..
budden..all is gone now.. as i always say...no chance of reconciliation...


dear frens......
or..those havin attachment tmr...yepp...gd luck!! may anne..who is at crsyler??(is tt the way u spell it?) jo..who is at..far east..my frens havin attachment at the same place as mi...err..who else ah?? valene......dunno where she attached to...ehhh...i dunno liao..hahah...
damn! have to wake up earlier than on normal sch days..hopefully its only for...tmr.. if not..saturday..is a total zzzzzz day for me..yepppp..hah!!






yest was my dad's bday..aso the day when titanic sank..aso the day when the hillsborough incident happened..dad's bday is such a significant day huh?
and..so! went out with the family..err..i mean..my parents..cos there's only 1 me..and no other.. yepp..we decided to go to some eat-all-u-can stall at changi for 'celebration' hah..and celebrate we did..yeepp..everyone was happy with the food in my tummy but i dun suggest goin there..cos 1.its too far..2.its abit hard to find..3.the owner of the shop is a lil' abit..too caring..


as u noe..changi area..wat issit famous for? yeess..u guess it correctly..pretty hot guys who dun wanna be guys anymore.. well..it all started with this ever-so-frenly-waiter-cum-owner of the shop.. his voice already sounded like some kid who hasnt broke his voice yet.. so..alrite...he kept askin us whether it was nice or not? whether the fire too hot or not?? whether the soup tasty or not...and so on la... we were like..yaa..yaaa...can....then..the steamboat ran outta gas.. called him over to change it..
apparently..i doubt he/she noes how to change it..so the gas leaked..din leak tt much the 1st time round.. so he/she lit the stove..and only the area around the stove kot fire...but it went out as soon as it litted.. yaa.. he/she adjusted the canister a lil..and this time i heard psssssssssssssssss.....but instead of waving away the gas..he/she went to lit it up! bOoOOoOO...mMmmmm.....followed by the sound of dried leaves being stepped on..haha..his/her hair..was all gone! yepp..all visible hair on his body was all gone.. the lashes..the brows...the patch of golden dyed hair..leg hair...all gone!! even saw ashes of hair fallin to ground.. ok..quite an ugly sight..but hey..lucky it din explode or wat..and no one was hurt...


here comes the funny part....i thot he would wet his hair and make it stand abit or wat..but instead..he sat down at 1 corner of the shop..took out a mirror..and started to groom himself..even asked his worker to check..dusted himself ever so delicately......soon he put his mirror back to tend to the customers..but after tat..he went back to his reflection booth..ahha!! and started patting his face...rubbing the excess burnt hair away...and best of all...sitting cross legged...left over rite.....now...thats wat i call experienced..!!! hah!!


oHh..k..enuff of the joke..i was ||<---this close to turnin into 1..a month ago...haha...




okIee....i guess thats all for today..tmr still need to wake up early to go temple at xin ming to visit my grandpa..who permernantly stays in a small box already...






Things To Ponder




A good time to keep your mouth shut is when you're in deep water.


How come it takes so little time for a child who is afraid of the dark to become a teenager who wants to stay out all night?


Business conventions are important because they demonstrate how many people a company can operate without.


Why is it that at class reunions you feel younger than everyone else looks?


Scratch a dog and you'll find a permanent job.


No one has more driving ambition than the boy who wants to buy a car.


There are no new sins....the old ones just get more publicity.


There are worse things than getting a call for a wrong number at 4 AM. It could be a right number.


Think about this..., No one ever says "It's only a game" when his team is winning.


Money will buy a fine dog, but only kindness will make him wag his tail.


The nicest thing about the future is that it always starts tomorrow.


If you don't have a sense of humor, you probably don't have any sense at all.


Seat belts are not as confining as wheelchairs.


I've reached the age where the happy hour is a nap.


Be careful reading the fine print. There's no way you're going to like it.


The trouble with bucket seats is that not everybody has the same size bucket.


Do you realize that in about 40 years, we'll have thousands of old ladies running around with tattoos?


Money can't buy happiness -- but somehow it's more comfortable to cry in a Corvette than in a Yugo.


After a certain age, if you don't wake up aching in every joint, you are probably dead.






midnite jogs are fun fun fun.. haha..1stly u run longer dist/get betta mileage..cos the weather is cooler..2ndly..it builds up ur courage..running thru some alleys..and dimmed pathways..my usual route...from my home..to central..to phs..to lentor..reachin near khatib...then turn back.. haha.. and when i jog at nite.. i take a detour to the back of phs and then back home.. jie's usual running route.. ahHh..its been awhile since i last ran with her..wonder hw she is now.. her bday's coming! 25th apr....
ohh..ohh..jewell saw mi juz now..hmmmm...but i din see her..haha..says i have a funny hairband..hah..
she wld most probably be spendin it with...her new boyfren....robin..or something.. yaa..i gues thats the name...some firefighter.....from somewhere... hmMm....nx time.. i shall be a pilot! (rite lili???? hah...) if not juz the aerospace industry wld do..i guess???


yeP..its that time of the yr again!!! where i go..TGIO..!!!!!!!!! wooO... thank god its over!!!! after a tormenting 1yr...my yr2 is finally over!! haha!lets start with this half a yr..cos i believe the previous half yr i would have blogged already..the main hmm..juz 2 food for thoughts.. wat have i done/learnt the previous yr? and wat mistakes i have made..?


lets start with mistakes..got more to say...i juz cant curb my sleepyness! i guess it runs in the family...?? haiii.. i need lotsa slp..dunno y.. hmm..a change in slpin habits might help? but poly's timetable is juz too messy..one day u start early..like 8..the nx..u start at 12.. my slp pattern is also messed up, therefore the weekends are the only time when i can rest and catch up.. hah.. which explains y i havent been goin out on saturdays.. hMMmMmMmmmmm.................... and aso saturdays are taken up by extra lessons...which makes mi equally tired..when i get home..




exams shldnt be before the 1week break la! making tt a study week for us when no one will study! moreover..it was the chinese new yr week! where got mood?? all around the neighbourhood u hear sounds of mahjong tiles being knocked into each other..ppl popping some party poppers..and there i was sitting at my table tryin to study! yePpp...study i did.. but absorb i did not..
to make things worst!! valentine's day was on my 1st paper! it was the worst valentine's of my...19yrs! i have no one to blame for not doin well..(failin almost all the tests..) the feelin of a heartbreak was just too unbearable.. budden..still i say the same thing..i've got no 1 to blame but myself.. for not studyin hard enuff..and prioritizing my time.. i have failed to be an example to my juniors..and aso..i've let my emotional mind..take over my rational mind.. yepp..


juz wish nx yr would be a betta one...and nx year..i mean..academic yr..not 2006.. speakin of which..2006 would be the yr i get enlisted.. and its only 1more yr to go! aft this..yr 3..doin my yr3 proj..gettin my diploma..thinkin of wat to do with my diploma..ha..which would mainly base mi in an aerospace industry..til then la.. rite now juz think abt wat tommorow...


oHh..ya! that day..it rained so heavily..was it..tuesday? or something? ya..lightning..thunder...which reminded mi of this current song..but the rain only lasted for 2hrs.. but it was a damn heavy downpour.. mannn..i juz love rainy days.. gettin drenched in the rain especially.. seems like i wun get sick after that..hmm....


ok..shall be..goin for my midnite jog tmr.. cos i can book napfa test already..yr3 liao! hahah... i fear for my pull ups..and aso..standing broadjump! i can jump high...but not far.. aha.. and pull ups..u shld noe la..i so small..maybe can do 2 only..haa...

gary was a Dangerous Musician in a past life. Discover your past lives @ Quiz Me

heYy....this suits me..!! hahaha...like totally dude!!!! wahahahhaa...!!


its all gonna end soon..
i can smell it!! its juz..err...40hrs away!!! (if i counted correctly..) ha..aft that..its back to normal for afew days..and...back to sch 6weeks later.. during tt 6 weeks im havin my attachment.. at some electronics company at defu lane.. and i've already started thinkin when is the nx nearest public holiday! haha..may-day's definately 1....and another..which i 4got.. ya..
oHh..my fren's nick states.."how cum u hav enough time to go out & make ppl fall in luv with u bt u dun hav enough time to pay attention to e 1 who alr does?"<----------------- so damn true..esp at this pt of time..


yes! i passed by a day without tokin to her.. but still..........aiii..wasted la..


no chance of reconciliation???
yepp..i guess there isnt..


oHh..im still deciding whether or not to have looooong hair..i mean..its yr 3..and aft tt im goin to army..and i've nv gotten a chance to keep it long..my face is definately gonna look bigger..(its so small now..) maybe my eyebrows wld be hidden? or taken over by the hair... yeepp...
i shall do a milan baros style....or..juz a luis garcia type..and definately..i will wear a headband....


im still lookin for the wristband which doesnt state anything on it... kinda hard to find...maybe those soccer shops shld have..scally those got soccer players names? ha..owell........*shrugs...*






wat do i really want??


wwat do u really wan?? ever thot of tt?? well i guess there are many wants in ur life...but wat do u really need?? havin many wants..and havin needs are totally different..
well..i grew up in a family of needs...wat we need..we buy..wat we dun want..we dont buy.. which most probably explains my thriftyness?? hmm...yaa..i guess its the environment of my parents' "save it for a rainy day.." theory..1 example...dad saved for 35yrs..before getting a brand new car..(of cos along the way..changed 3 times la..all second hand cars..ppl sit before liao..ha..still can remember the previous 2 no plates.. EX 4414..and SBH 2958..forgot the laz alphabets..)
from young..it has always been a habit to safe already...yaa..thats jus me...


speakin of which..i think i've found out the reason y i hate boys' sch so much.. hah! k..ALL my uncles were monfort boys....yes..ALL...and ALL my cousins are from boys' sch..or have studied in 1 before...currently..1 RI..1 ex chinese high track team captain..1 ex marist...1 ex catholic...1 ex monfort-who went on to rosyth..but still ex monfort...yaa... u get the picture??..in 1 way or another..they had been inside a boys' sch before.. to make things worst! my female cousins were in all gers' sch too!!! ok..i only have 3 female cousins... but the point is.........its only me!!! who studied in a neighbourhood sch..
perhaps..if i were to be in a boys' sch..i wld be in JC rite now..perhaps....if it would all have been betta if i came from monfort...dad was complainin abt the distance..thatz y he din send me there..but..if there's still a monfort junior nx time..i wld sent my son there! hah...


so many perhaps............ perhaps life had a plan for mi... perhaps life had to be planned by me? i wld take the latter tho...


i guess rite now..all i wanna do now..is juz to take 1 step at a time.. live like there's no tommorow..as they say..
"i juz wanna feel......real love...feel the home tt i live in...." : robbie...


ohh..met jo at amk mac today..saw my classmates too! ha..so qiao! jo was like.."gary..give u 5mins to come down.." then i started whining..haha...ok..give u 10! she said..there...she was with her another fren..who reminded mi of casper...cos i was only tokin to my other fren abt casper last nite! ha..yes...thats u..jass..ohHh..n i think tanessa is a nice name...unique! i told jo awhile later...then the reply i got was..asshole...hah... aiiiyooo...wonder if i made her angry? hMmM....jo if u read this..ask her come my blog...public apology over here.. heh...sorryyy..


found this song...heard it on class95..tingles up tt little feelin inside of u...




Another summer day
Is come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm


Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know


And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that


Another aerorplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home


Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home


And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believe in me


Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home


And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let go home
Oh, I miss you, you know


Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home








wat am i gonna be???


everyone has dreams and aspirations..and from young..i believe it was every little boy's dream to rule the planet!! as tt little boy grew older..he wanted to be a pilot..cos kids...u noe?? always fascinated by flyin objects..take a bubble for example!


wat do u wanna be??? have u asked urself that?? i went into secondary sch wantin to be a DJ..to rule the airwaves..and rite now..i still carry tt dream deep within me..even tho its slowly fadin away.. and i wanna be a dj not becos my cousin is a dj..i wanted to be a dj when she was in australia studyin..thats long ago.. owell...some dreams should nv fade..this is 1 of them..


another 1 of my dreamssss..is tt i have to visit the city of rome,vienna,and liverpool one day!! i will~!!! y rome??? cos there are many ancient stuffs there..y vienna? cos i wanna hear the vienna boys' choir sing... and y liverpool?? needless to say..i support tt club! therefore i support the city too..i wanna visit the river mersey..the abbey street..beatles!! woOo..and aso..the Spion Kop..which is in Anfield stadium.. of cos..it will be free and easy down at liverpool..so i can walk along the streets and..maybe meet some famous soccer stars! wanna meet michael owen again..the laz time i met him..was when he was in singapore for the asian tour..would nv forget tt handshake! tt time at marina mandarin hotel's carpark.. haha... so happened tt my dad parked at the carpark nearest to the hotel's lobby..so tt time liverpool team was tourin the island in some london cabs.. it dropped owen and markus babbel off at tt spot..thats when i met him..i think they were goin back for some conference at the conference room..therefore everyone was up on top!! haha.... zuan dao!!! hehehe.. owell...owen's as tall as me.. wahahahhaa..but so much cuter than me......urghh! hah!


opps..sidetracked a lil there... yepp...of cos..my main dream now is to get a diploma and hope SIA wants me?? haha... owell.....havent got any examptions for anything yet..so......tt dream is aso fading.. i shld juz go get another diploma or something..............................................


ha..din slp really well laz nite....1st..jass....msged mi at 1.55am...heard a tone..i knew it was my fone..but i got up to pee instead.. then...this lil ger called huoy ching..who is somewat of a bad-girl-turned-good..msged mi at 5.55..ha! 'gary..can do me a favor..i send u my fotos..and u upload into ur com and send to me can??' was she slp msging or wat!!?? read tt msg..went back to slp..hah!!
woke up....at..12..ate breakfast..watched the pope's funeral...man was it grand or wat!!!! abt 5million ppl attended..!!!!


anyway...thatz my day....


changin skin soon............this 1 makes my entries look looooooooong...






i thinK abt YOU over and over again..........bold characters..u shld noe wat it means....






Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
And I can't keep picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad, yeah
Cause it's all in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again
And I can't take it yeah I can't shake it
Nooo


I can't wait to see you
Want to see if you still got that look in your eyes
That one you had for me before we said our goodbyes
And it's a shame that we got to spend our time
Being mad about the same things
Over and over again
About the same things
Over and over again
Ohh
But I think she's leaving
Ooh man she's leaving
I don't know what else to do
(I can't go on not loving you)


Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
And I can't keep picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad, yeah
Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again yeah
And I can't take it yeah I can't shake it
Nooo


I remember the day you left
I remember the last breath you took right in front of me
When you said that u would leave
I was too damn stubborn to try to stop you or say anything
But I see clearly now
And this choice I made keep playing in my head
Over and over again
Playing my head
Over and over again
Ohh
I think she's leaving
Ooh man she's leaving
I don't know what else to do
(I can't go on not loving you)


Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
And I can't keep picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad, yeah
Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again
And I can't take it I can't shake it
Nooo


(Now that I've realizes that I'm going down
From all this pain you've put me through
Everytime I close my eyes I lock it down
I can't go on not loving you)


Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
And I can't keep picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad, yeah
Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again
And I can't take it I can't shake it
Nooo




Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
And I can't keep picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad, yeah
Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again
And I can't take it I can't shake it
Nooo


Over and Over again
Over and Over again
Cause it's all in my head








i think too much before i slp..
thats y i wake up so feeling all so tired..


gonna have my 2nd paper tmr..and tt paper is math! urghh hate math...all the numbers..and..alphabets.. and after that..it will be 2 more papers before the end of my yr2..


wat have i been thinkin all these while??
afew qns.. to start off.. it was something triggered by my fren's tag, which set me thinkin..rite now..at this stage of my life..am i contented?? wat am i gonna be..? wat do i really want? have i achieved wat i wanted?? have i done wat i needed to??
i kinda twisted it around abit and this was wat i got
are u contented with wat u have?
well..u should be..i am..i've learnt..wats urs..will be urs.. wats not urs..will never get to be urs.. it takes 2 hands to clap..and most things comes in pairs.. they say..if u let someone..or something go..if they someone or something comes back..its meant to be..
i remember my fren tellin me this..'her bf is not dashing, model type, hunkish, over-the-moon hensom, fairytale-prince-kinda-guy..' he's juz plain..pleasant lookin.. i guess thats wat its meant to be rite?? u dun need a guy who has all the richest.. all he needs to be is..juz..who he is...juz..be himself..


ahhh...frens.........yepp..im blessed with lots of frens.. some i believe will stick with me thru thick and thin..others will juz be passerbys..hi and bye type..no more..no less..
remember when we were younger? and ur pri sch classmates would pass around this diary askin u to write ur profile and stuff..well it was quite an IN thing laz time..wonder if it still is now? hmM...anyway.. i used to dread writing them.. cos they had to rank friends..hah..best frens..gd frens..frens.. yaa.. to me..frens are juz frens.. there's no best fren..or wateva u wanna call it..frens forever..those kinda stuff.. ~no~ its how much i value u that makes up this frenship..yep..


was watchin the liverpool juventus match last nite.. before the match.. a min silence for the pope..as well as the 39 who lost their lives at the heysel disaster back in 1985.. the most spectacular scene i've ever seen on tv..it was so touchin aso.. the Spion Kop pulled out mosiac pieces which read "amicizia" which is italian for frenship..


perhaps thats wat set me thinkinggggg..........






..............to be continued.............






got this off CSI season 4..




Let me not to the marriage of true minds


Admit impediments. Love is not love


Which alters when it alteration finds,


Or bends with the remover to remove:


O no! it is an ever-fixed mark


That looks on tempests and is never shaken;


It is the star to every wandering bark,


Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken.


Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks


Within his bending sickle's compass come:


Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,


But bears it out even to the edge of doom.


If this be error and upon me proved,


I never writ, nor no man ever loved.






William Shakespeare


(1564 - 1616)








fucK channeL 5..!!!!!!!


I am deeply hurt and disgusted by the Champion’s League Quarter Finals advertisement aired on Channel 5 when I was watching Star Wars on Monday. The advertisement had something like this “The last time these 2 sides met, 39 people died”. (Heysel 29’5’85) I would like to emphasize that football is a sport of friendship and unity. The next part of the advertisement was something about Referee Anders Frisk being threatened to be killed. And the last part had “Life and Death” as a parting shot! Being a Liverpool fan myself, I do not want to be reminded the tragedies of the past that Liverpool fans has been through. Heysel is definitely a day for all Liverpool fans to forget.


There are 2 disasters in Liverpool’s past which no Liverpool fan would like to be reminded and pictures of these should never be posted on the media, let alone Channel 5. Channel 5 was being insensitive to the purpose of advertising to the mass public. It has failed to think on behalf of the people and the majority of Liverpool fans living in Singapore. I understand that as the build up to the Champion’s League Quarter finals intensifies, with a Semi Final spot at stake, advertisements are bound to be attractive to the viewers. But, “Life and Death” should be something never to be meddled with.


In case u all haven't watch the advertisement..go watch it, and u will understand...
thats not advertising!!! neither issit being remorseful.... its juz..plain insensitiveness!!




oHh..and mom's abit saddened by the Pope's passing.. she's half a catholic(not a convert)..she told mi tt when the Pope came in nov..she was in the hospital.. thatz y she couldnt go to the national stadium.. yepp..


and mom always believes that there's a God..
but also believes that God isnt the one who helps u..
U need to help urself..
sometimes..u might need someone to tok to..
someone who u think can help..
then who do u turn to??
God...
but aft tokin to God..
u feel betta..(everyone does..)
but..actually..u have helped urself by speakin wats kept inside all out..
so.....
ya..








wat a blast!!!


the last day of yr 2..and we are takin fotos.. haha!! shldnt it be on the last day of yr 3..??? or on our graduation day?? hMmM..??? anyway..here's how it went! we had our RWP-report writing and presentation's presentation yest..so everyone had to wear formal.. except for some LOSERS who came in jeans and..shirts!! but..the presentation went well..except for some strong questioning..and personal attack! haha..which was damn funny la..


everyone was so nervous before the presentation..could see our hands shakin..and lips tremblng.. i went to the toilet like....3 times!! to get rid of my excess pee+adrenaline diffused.. haha!! i was grp 3..stuck in the middle and my fren had a broken toe! so..had to cover his parts in the findings area.. but nontheless..we told the lecturer the reason and she accepted it..we wanted to give a complete presentation instead of a beginning and ending type.. hah..


aft everything was over..tabulated the results..and.."i was safe.." ok.. foto takin session started taking place!!!! haa...


we went to our scenic garden of small kois and some mud suckers..and..guppies..(nx time im gonna throw a fighting fish inside..) hah... and started snapppppinggg awayyy...only 1 person brought the camera..so...had to wait.......but lucky i got my 7610~!! 1megapix!! gd enuff for a gd clean shot.. yeahhh...


ok..lets fast forward a lil.. started doin wacky poses..fierce looks..retro poses...and so on... my fav was my..'saturday nite fever' pose.. it shall be up on frenster soon... muz get my fren to send to me..
and then..came the wedding style fotos.. my fren..juz carried me up..and asked another to snap..aft tt..they started passing me around~!!! wa lauuu.....like a baby like tt....(now i understand hw a baby feels if he/she is carried by 1 person and another..) they even tried to throw me into the pond..but lucky they din.. haha..
oHh..during the process..my fone dropped~!!!!!!! urghhH..sadded.............. but lucky it dropped face down..instead of camera side down!! lucky...if the lense crack...i dunno wat m i gonna do man!!


okieeeeee.......then we went home.............
hahh...thats it..except for my fren tellin me she couldnt meet me,but it was raining anyway..so..yaa............nth else seemed to have spoilt tt wonderful occasion...hah!!


and.........here i am..mugging...and at the same time..blogging....yepp...




garY......... 'ouT..'