Saturday, December 31, 2005
- 9:58 PM
I think I've already lost you
I think you're already gone
I think I'm finally scared now
You think I'm weak - but I think you're wrong
I think you're already leaving
Feels like your hand is on the door
I thought this place was an empire
But now I'm relaxed - I can't be sure
I think you're so mean - I think we should try
I think I could need - this in my life
I think I'm just scared - I think too much
I know this is wrong it's a problem I'm dealing
If you're gone - maybe it's time to go home
There's an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
If you're gone - baby you need to come home
Cuz there's a little bit of something me
In everything in you
I bet you're hard to get over
I bet the room just won't shine
I bet my hands I can stay here
I bet you need - more than you mind
I think you're so mean - I think we should try
I think I could need - this in my life
I think I'm just scared - that I know too much
I can't relate and that's a problem I'm feeling
If you're gone - maybe it's time to go home
There's an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
If you're gone - baby you need to come home
Cuz there's a little bit of something me
In everything in you
I think you're so mean - I think we should try
I think I could need - this in my life
I think I'm just scared - do I talk too much
I know this is wrong it's a problem I'm dealing
If you're gone - maybe it's time to go home
There's an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
If you're gone - baby you need to come home
Cuz there's a little bit of something me
In everything in you
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
- 3:19 PM
wat a xmas!!!
hahaha! apart from drinkin wine..
it was the quality time spent with the loved ones
frens..
family..<---altho mom was sick thruout xmas..
or just seeing her (cousin's gerfren..) for the 1st time..hahha...
its just heartwarming..
lemme see...
xmas eve..
met up with the hpt grads at far east wanted to wait for another 1.. who was working there..and then we headed down to ps..cafe cartel for dinner.. ok..meetin time was 9..we reached at 10.30~! hahahahahhaha!!! hpt..left our 3Ps at home on tt day la.. so..nvm..we ate..and finished at abt 11.40 like tt..
wq brought his gerfren along too..wan ling i think..the name.. quite a nice girl..sweet..and..lovable..hehe! buttt...we were like sayin....they dont match!!!!! but heck...it clearly shows tt love is blind.. haha!
and so...love is really blind.....
ya..
played game..chit chat..watched final destination at shannon's place.. all tt...stayed thru the nite...and left the nx morning..which was xmas day..headed down to casurina for prata..and then home!! hahaha.. i reached home at abt 11...slpt til 6..went to my family's xmas gathering...
where i met my cousin's gerfren.. she's very cute la! looks like a malay..a filipino...hahaha.. then he bluffed his mom all along...until xmas day! haha! ohh mannn... his mom believed tt she was a filipino..and told us on the table tt she's a filipino... so nvm..i aso thot tt she was a filipino..
when they arrived..i went..
"ni hao!! shen dan jie kuai le..!!"
then she went..
"shen dan jie kuai le.."
then i looked at my aunt...
hahaha..
she went..
"ewen!!!! u were bluffin me all along ahh!!!"
hahahhahahahaha!
oppsss...
yepp..
thats xmas...
if only.....
Well every single time I see you I start to feel this way
It makes me wonder if I am ever gonna feel this way again. There's a picture
tearin
in the back of my head
I see it over and over
I wanna hold you and love you
In my arms and then
I wanna need you
cuz I need to be with you till the end
Then I hear myself reply "You've got to hold it in" this time tonight
If only I had the guts to feel this way, if only you'd look at me and
want to stay, if only I could take you in my arms and say, I won't go cuz I
need you
Sit here waiting, wondering, hoping that I'll make this right
Cuz all I think about is your hands, your face and all these lonely nights
There's a feeling screaming in the back of my head
Saying it over and over
I wanna hold you and love you
In my arms and then
I wanna need you
cuz I need to be with you till the end
Then I hear myself reply "She'll never let you in" this time tonight
If only I had the guts to feel this way, if only you'd look at me and wanna
stay, if only I could take you in my arms and say, I won't go cuz I need you
I wanna hear you say it'll always be this way
And we'll be hand in hand for everynight and everyday
I wanna scream and shout cuz rules are never doubt
And all I care about is you and me and us and now
If only I had the guts to feel this way, if only you'd look at me and wanna
stay, if only I could take you in my arms and say, I won't go cuz I need you
Please don't go cause I need you now
Yeah. Cuz I need you
If only, yeah cuz I need you now
If only cuz I need you, I need you
If only , cuz I need you
If only cuz I need you
If only, yeah, if only...I need you now....yeah
Friday, December 23, 2005
- 6:03 PM
lets see....wat have i done for the past few days??? haha..
cook!!! yeahh..yeah...i rock!! i noe...i can cook..yaa... but only becos my mom cant cook...for the past 4 days i have been cookin..haha! so the dinner only consists of 2 dishes..! a plate of vegee...and a plate of soup! hahahhaha!! ok..very monotone..budden thats all i can do... ohh! i 4got.. rice! hahah.. 6 of tt small rice scoop is enuff.. and then water ah..i dunno how to put leh~ juz pour lor..and see the level..dunno wat 1/4 more of the 1/4..already inside.. smth like tt.. i figured it out myself.. hahha!!
then the veg..sometimes salty..sometimes too salty..haha! wat to do????? inexperienced ma...then no choice..dun wanna waste food..eat it up myself lor.. sit at the dinner table...starin at the veg aso no use rite..?? haha!
okok..this is the 1st time in my 19 yrs with my mother that she has been this sick in my life~ previously..its juz flu.... or..constipation...or flu....or...cough.. but nth of this sort.. and the problem with her is that she doesnt wanna go to the doc.. i tell her already...tell until i give up... then ahh..her fever went up to 39.5..super high already! my highest only 39.4... haha!! then went down to normal again..36.9...then went up again!! omggg..!! 39...then down..then up...like stock market like tt...
hmm..its xmas eve's eve..... haha! my cousin's back from US..gonna visit her soon..
yeppp....... happy holidays everyone!!!
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
- 1:36 PM
mom's sick....
bad xmas....
its time for me to take care of her..
i think she's agin alr...reachin 60alr leh...!!and thats almost 3times my age..the body weakens.. get sick easily....
oh man..i fear the worst...
dad says its dengue..budden i got experience ma...gotta wait and see.. see if rashes come out... the fever very high...
haiii....... wat a holiday............
Sunday, December 18, 2005
- 3:52 PM
juz back from a looooooooooooooong movie! King Kong...hahahah! and surprisingly..Singapore was named..! hMmm... mid nite show! kinda laz min..my fren say wanna watch..then called me..so I went down to lido and booked the tix with her.. and then we slacked around orchard and walked around..see xmas lites..and watch ppl.. tok tok... enjoy music at the bar below Wisma...(i still dunno wats tt called...got fish tank de..) nx time i wanna work there part time.. y??? cos they got live band....and i like live bands... its the impromto-ness that makes me admire them... msgin joyce she was at the cosway...yaa..in the coach..and i bet she was stuck there for a long time.. while walkin... and had alot of calls.....lotsa ppl there.. very crowded..
waited til abt 1 for the movie to begin and for the rest to arrive... jewell arrived with her 2frens... 1 ex phs..and another..dunno from NTU..same course as jie!!! hahaha... im gonna tell jie abt it soon... i think her name's serena...if i remembered correctly..we all were so slpy.. very bitchyy...abit siao..they say..and they say suitable for me...(yeah rite...how to match us together????) but then again...(perhaps???) then i diam diam....stand there stare at her... ahhaha!! but she's attached..and its not my character to steal other ppl's gf.. yaa...
king kong is super nice la..i really admire peter jackson.. his cinematography is juz totally smashinggg..!! the scenes all tt..all captured nicely..the plot quite gd..but juz tt 1 part was out... how they transport king kong back to new york..haha! he nv show... but its ok..he's still gonna win something in the emmy's..im sure abt tt...
aft the show..we sat at mac and slacked..they were tokin.. i was reminiscening..... yaa..
a little part of me still wants to be with u..
a little part of me tells me that u are still the one..
a little part of me says not to give up..
a little part of me says to give up..
a little part of me is weary..
a little part of me is tired of tryin..
a little part of me tries too much..
a little part of me tried too hard..
a little part of me is scared..
a little part of me fears that i wld get hurt again..
a little part of me doesnt wanna get hurt anymore..
a little part of me glows when u are around..
a little part of me sinks when u are not..
a little part of me lightens in ur presence..
a little part of me dwells on ur absence..
a little part of me wants to know more about u..
a little part of me thinks i noe too much about you already..
a little part of me needs your lovin..
a little part of me wont get your lovin..
a big part of me is still in love with you...
Saturday, December 17, 2005
- 1:32 PM
She
may be the face I can't forget
a trace of pleasure or regret
may be my treasure or the price I have to pay
she may be the song that summer sings
may be the chill that autumn brings
may be a hundred different things
within the measure of a day.
She
may be the beauty or the beast
may be the famine or the feast
may turn each day into a heaven or a hell
she may be the mirror of my dreams
a smile reflected in a stream
she may not be what she may seem
inside her shell
She
who always seems so happy in a crowd
whose eyes can be so private and so proud
no one's allowed to see them when they cry
she may be the love that cannot hope to last
may come to me from shadows of the past
that I'll remember till the day I die
She
may be be the reason I survive
the why and wherefor I'm alive
the one I'll care for through the rough and ready years
me I'll take her laughter and her tears
and make them all my souvenirs
for where she goes I've got to be
the meaning of my life is
Happy 1st year anniversary...Its been a yr since I had you..and 3 months exactly since I got u!! Wat am i tokin about???
The Car...
and My Licence..!! hahahha..
WHAT WERE U THINKIN MAN!?!?!?!?!!
they both fall on the same day..(17th of the month..)
hhhmmMm.....was havin a conversation in the car with my fren laz nite... tellin my fren all about
this girl...
this love..
seems like
she's everything... ..
she's all i ever had..
she's always been there..
she's always on my mind..
i juz cant describe... its all in the song above...
Thursday, December 15, 2005
- 11:40 AM
i wan a pair of blue suede shoes...
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
- 7:27 PM
at home...
'wa lau ehh...my whole body very itchy la!!'
dad replies...
'go downstairs and rub ur back against the tree..juz dun get kot my the neighbourhood dog..'
hahahahhahahahha!!!!!!!
joke of the day i tell u..... hahahahhaha!!
and for those HPT juniors who has juz came back from the council camp..u might have watched The Longest Yard.. here's the soundtrack...
Free City
This is a shout out to every young brother ya know
Thats doin his thing right now
Keep ya head up...
Hes walkin the yard wishin he had wings
Ya know so he could fly up out that joint
Man
If I could, fly away
Ooo and I wouldn't come back no more
I, I,d turn around,
Just to see you for the last time,
See,now I know
Hey, that it won't be easy
I done fought in a battle, and I done made it this far
I gotta few more feet, but its still the longest yard
Man, it's the longest yard i ever had to get in my life
And see my life ain't right, if my wife don't write
My niggas can't eat if the fish don't bite
Might raise the gross sales, like Mike and Ike
Now big brother almighty
I keep a gamma ray, I'ma G-5 G
Take a G-5 jeep, G-5 deep
Too some of their bare feet
And thet deep don't speak
Listen maybe they lock it down right herre
See body bag and gag and your found right herre
This as serious as it sounds right herre
The guards guard the ground, 4 pounds right herre
And they ain't playin, their just lettin you know
That anything they want to happen, niggahappen real slow
Get the word from upstairs, put you in that hole
I can't take it, I'm justready to go
If I could, fly away
Ooo and I wouldn't come back no more
I, I'd turn around,
Just to see you for the last time,
See, now I know
Hey that it won't be easy
I done fought in a battle, and done made it this far
I gotta few more feet, but its still the longest yard
Yeah yeah, its still the longest yard
Uh uh, its still the longest yard
Um um, its still the longest yard
I done fought in a battle and I done made it this far
I'm in my cell 20 hours a day
And doin push-ups every hour a day
Cause I'm tryin to keep the cobwebs away
that's why I'm markin off the calender days
Tryin to get out of the way
And im just tryin to keep a piece of mine
And I'm gonna shame a motherfucker with a piece of mine
Cause he's tryin to take a piece of mine
So im gonna slice his ass a piece at a time
But now that they close the door
Lock me in a cell 30 deep but its built for 10
Tell me what kind of world they got you in
With the barb wire fences, box you in
From now, till they turn off the lights
I'ma read anything in sight
Its kinda hard tryin to read at night
But I'ma change my life
And hope another brother take this flight
If I could, fly away
Ooo and I wouldn't come back no more
I, I'd turn around,
Just to see you for the last time,
See, now I know
Hey that it won't be easy
I done fought in a battle, and done made it this far
I gotta few more feet, but its still the longest yard
Yeah yeah, its still the longest yard
Uh uh, its still the longest yard
Um um, its still the longest yard
I done fought in a battle and I done made it this far
(Oohh no) I gotta make it out this place some how
(Oohh no) Man I really believe that i done turne it around
(Oohh no) You see, all I need is that second chance to show,
since I crossed the ration, my obligationof rehabilitation
(Oohh no) They can punch me high, and they can kick me low
(Oohh no) But i mean its gonna take more thatn that for them to break my soul
(Oohh no) Man its hard for people to understand what its like to be, gated, incarcerated, I just can't take it, but I'ma make it man to see better days
If I could, fly away
Ooo and I wouldn't come back no more
I, I'd turn around,
Just to see you for the last time,
See, now I know
Hey that it won't be easy
I done fought in a battle, and done made it this far
I gotta few more feet, but its still the longest yard
Yeah yeah, its still the longest yard
Uh uh, its still the longest yard
Um um, its still the longest yard
I done fought in a battle and I done made it this far
If i could fly away,
If I could I turn around,
If I could fly away
- 12:06 AM
aft tryin for 1/2 hr...i gave up tryin to sign into msn..
gonna slp now.. haha.. zzzzzzzzzz......
Sunday, December 11, 2005
- 9:51 PM
this is a must blog..!!
i repeat...a must blog..!!!!!!!!!!!!
im totally disappointed...
i repeat...totally disappointed..!!!!!!!
i went for a dinner with my father's colleages..and 1 of them drives a SUBARU WRX STI..!! and if u think its juz a normal WRX STI..!! it isnt!!!!! its a 400 horse power STi..!!!! can u imagine tt..!!!!!!
and wat happened was tt..yest...somebody crashed into him!!!!! bitch!!!! stupid lady driver...and she claims tt its his fault..!! omggg..!!! she crashed into the side of him leh!!! how can be his fault..!! but anywayy...he's gettin a new 1...the 2006 version..(the pig nose wan)..and this time..! he's gonna lend me.. he said it quite funnily.. i let run in for me.. hahah! u noe?? new cars need some runnin in time aso.. budden its a 300HP wan.. sad...i think he wld definately feel a diff when he downgrades by 100HP...
very sad leh!!!
i was gearin up for it noe!!!! if not i wld be restin at home..cos im so so so so so so burnt!!!
sentosa has taken a toll on me..
there was zouk out yest aso! damnn.....din have anyone to go with.. so.....who cares! hahaha..
errr.....joyce ah!! ur lah-ber-band still with me leh! wahahhahahhaa.... got 1 part the elastic not there le.. hahha.. still usable... :)
- 4:58 PM
been running through my mind today,
scenarios to add to your hypocrisy,
no one ever takes the blame,
but everyone is searching for a cure to the pain.
nothing ever seems to change,
oh nothing ever seems to change,
we just play like broken records in a deaf man's charade
things keep coming and i keep wondering,
i start feeling the walls close in,
things keep coming and i keep stumbling,
i start feeling strong enough to break..
- 12:41 PM
im a cooked lobster now!! had great fun at sentosa yest with the fresh grads and the KAH..namely joyce pinwen kayjoo liting kelly audrey colin winnie and jewell..
joyce la..!! burden!!! as usual... 1st bai kar...then lan-gar the head..then now.. cannot swim~!!!~!~! omggg.... haha!
audrey!! report strength..on the float...
pinwen..tellin joyce to learn swimmin with her heart and soul...
liting..u heavy girl..!! shld have chose to carry kayjoo instead..!!
kayjoo..can swim! i thot she cant! hahaha!!
kelly...wahhh..bimbo!!!!!!
colin....my prank partner..
jewell..is fat! hahahha!! u need to lose weight!!
winnie.....wear bikini la..!!!! aiyooo!!!
and me..
i need to train my packs!!
ring the bell la..all of us! hahah..
then couldnt decide where to go aft dinner..so we went our own ways..with me goin to bishan to change some pc stuffs..and at the same time walk walk abit.. but sadly..i walk the 1st round around the second level..then got tired le.. hahahah! gave up walkin... went home to bathe and slp..
gary! im hot!
i cant be stopped...
hahah...
Friday, December 09, 2005
- 10:24 PM
We know what we are, but know not what we may be.
The man who removes a mountain begins by carrying away small stones.
Opportunity may knock only once, but temptation leans on the doorbell.
Age is not important unless you're a cheese.
Behind every successful man is a surprised woman.
Everyone rises to their level of incompetence.
Virtue is insufficient temptation.
To err is dysfunctional, to forgive co-dependent.
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
- 6:15 PM
she's not meant to be..
she'll never be..
how hard i try..
how much i do..
its never meant to be...
:(
how??
Monday, December 05, 2005
- 8:48 PM
i juz came back from a 5d4n camp..
i was too tired tt i din blog when i came back..
so..
juz read all my junior's blogs to noe wat happened during camp..
they were so precise tt i din have to blog on my own le..
haha!
ok....im juz lazy..
